For a pessimist I'm pretty optomistic

I am going to marry the man of my dreams. BE JEALOUS. So since I don't get to talk to him for about 2 weeks... I decided to write a blog about him (like I don't do that all the time anyways. This is different.) I want to tell everyone why he is perfect for me, and don't worry nothing too mushy... its semi-sweet. (Just how I like it)

Reason 1: This boy can make me laugh so hard I almost pee my pants. Not cause he tickles me or does stupid annoying things like that (ok sometimes he does do that kind of stuff) But it's not annoying to me in the least. He can just keep me laughing for hours and hours, and I miss that the most when he is gone. The marine corps puts him in a bad mood sometimes and I don't get to hear his laugh as much when it's been a shitty marine corps day. I do know how to get him to laugh back though, and THAT my friends is the reason he has kept me interested in his goofy self all these long years. Even when I just am texting him he will say something so funny that I can almost picture him saying it and laugh out loud to a text message. Yep, he is just that good.

Reason 2: I know most women LOOOVE to be romanced and all that girly stuff. I am not a traditional girl who needs flowers on her doorstep and I am pretty practical when it comes to things like this. Dave is SEMI sweet. He know's what to say to me to make me feel so special without being overboard with it. (EXAMPLE: you are the moon, the sun, the starlit sky. Without you I'd dwell in darkness.) DAVEY does not do this and I LOVE THIS ABOUT HIM. We are both pretty practical about things and we know we're in love, we don't need all the sweetness... just enough. =)

Reason 3: Ummmm have you SEEN my fiance. He's a hottie. The marine corps is NOT full of hot men with big massive weapons and guns and sexy tan bodies... no not at all. BUT Dave is smokin hot! I got lucky with this, I'd like him even if he gained 12.3 lbs. :) It's not all about looks but it's very nice to have a hot man in my life, so everyone can stare and be like "damn what's that crazy burnette chick doin with that hot marine?"

Reason 4: We like doing the same things. I cannot wait to go hiking and hit up Moab and go to all these fun places with him. We took the same German class and decided that one day we shall go to Germany to speak what little German we know to get us some German BIER!!! (that's German for BEER.) When in Germany YOU HAVE TO TRY BEER. It's only natural. We will also most likely go deep sea fishing while we are living in San Diego. I have been fishing before and I don't mind the fishing part as long as someone wants to bait my hook :D But I loath fish, they're to squishy and smell awful. I will not touch the fish, but knowing Dave he'll probably make me kiss it or something nasty and I'll get over it eventually.

Reason 5: We can literally talk about anything. I have known this boy for so long now, we have a lot of the same friends and have grown up living 3 blocks away for 6 years. He was in my ward so we can make fun of the old ward together. We hung out a lot and knew every person we ever dated other than eachother. And for some reason we always stayed friends, even when we broke up we would always still hang out as friends. (probably cause I still had a huge crush on the rascal, but I was too nervous to say anything to him about it.) The fact is that now that we know so much about each other, most topics are an open book. There are things I'm still getting to know about him and vice versa, but I will take the good with the bad.

Reason 6: We have similar taste in music. I blame David for most of this. I used to think that Dave was crazy for getting a tattoo of TOOL on his arm. It is his peragative though, who am I to judge what he does. He told me to listen to this song by Tool called the patient. I thought sure why not, I kind of have a huge crush on him so I will see what he likes them so much for. Anyways needless to say I am now a fan of them. Since then my taste in music has opened up to that style and I am a huge fan of APC. Which tool's lead singer is also in. Breaking Benjamin, Rob Zombie, Godsmack, and others like that we are both into. I'm just sayin next time Tool comes to concert I am going! Or A perfect circle, I'd go to them before Tool. Sorry Dave.

Reason 7: I like that we aren't the same at all. He likes nasty tang and zip Miracle whip and I love Mayo. It's kind of a joke I usually send him pictures of me flipping off the miracle whip now and he things he's going to put mayo in my socks one day. We just have these little inside jokes now. I love it.

Reason 8: He's pretty easy going. Doesn't get mad often and I honestly have never got into a fight with him. Which is good we don't have any reason to fight about anything. I know one day we'll get into a fight, but its nothing we can't calm down and talk about things later. I'm pretty easy going and I am fairly reasonable when it comes to things. There is always a compromise and picking battles is probably the key to anything. Why fight about something as stupid as what movie to get, or what carpet to put in or (i dunno what do old married couples fight about.) I just love that we're both pretty level headed that it should never be a problem with us.

Reason 9: We have some awesome families. I love his family and my family loves him. I can't speak for him but I'm pretty sure that he likes my family. If not me and my family are a package deal and he's just putting up with them for me. (I know that he likes me =D ) Both of our families are ver ver excited for us. Which is SOOOOOO good. I have dealt with past relationships that my parents don't like him and as you can tell... it didn't work out. AND with good reason.

Reason 10: He gets me. I am a total spaz at times, and he is too. I know he's just going to get wierder with the time spent with him, and I know I'll probably get crazier. (thanks mom) He know's that too, he's seen my mom first hand and we are both aware that I might get slightly crazy. He's just going to get frutier. I know this and expect him one day to push me out of bed cause I stole the blanket, Or I might really find mayo in my sock one day. I'll probably put mayo on his sammich one day just to spite him. :) We just can have fun with what we have to work with. We will just deal with out personal problems and make fun of eachother for it.

I could absolutly keep going and tell you everything I love about this kid right down to his eyelashes. I won't keep ranting though. I have a lot of inside jokes in a lot of these reasons that he will only understand and most might not. It's nice to think about these great memories that I had with him, and more to come soon.

Dave, wherever you might be right now. Know that you're on my mind and that's the way it'll be til forever and 3 days are up. Love you crazy tard nugget.

For a pessimist I'm pretty optomistic by paramore. I thought it was ironic. Like myself. :)

SAVE ME

I am venting today. (because today offically sucks)
I absoulutly LOATH my job. People do NOT tip as well as they should which makes me upset and my tables can probably tell and that prolly takes away from my tip too. Seriously people have been leaving 10 percent or less unless their bill is under 20 then people leave like 20 percent but big deal 4 dollars per table that stay there for an hour and I work about 6 to 7 hours... lets just say it's not too fabulous to be a waitress in utah right now. I should be thankful that I even have a job and I am pretty grateful, but the way I make my money is with tips and people are not even being fair. It's miserable at work.
I miss him so much. It is positively miserable being without him at all. I am ready to go to Vegas and elope. Just so I can spend more time with him instead of being without him. I know for a fact that I can only be with him for the rest of my life because I have NEVER EVER been this upset about being away from anyone. Even with my own parents I don't get this feeling of empty aloneness. It literally breaks my heart just thinking that I don't get to fall asleep with him, or even not get to talk to him at night. (ps i'm sorry if you think i'm just being a whiny baby about this but I have literally never been so alone in my whole life, I love him. what can i say?) I know I'm being a baby and I know I can be tougher than this, I'll be ok, I just need to get out of my apartment..... which leads me to,
My roommates are all gone. Chelsee and Asumi are still home, but I haven't seen hide or hair of either of them. I am very very VERY alone. I miss erkle and denise and becca. I wish they would come home and play games with me and dance in the halls with me. I think that would help my mind not be so sad about my David being so far away.
I have a lot of bills and they're not getting paid because people aren't tipping me well at work. Which is not good because I might be getting married sooner rather than later and I need to pay for a ring and ... well I dunno what else we are going to be doing but. We will see.
Anyways my day sucked cause I had to work, and I have to go to work, I didn't get to talk to my Davey today, (not alot anyways and my hell do I miss this kid so much or what) I did get to see my future family in law for his older sisters birthday, which was nice to see them and talk wedding stuff. I went home and talked to my Mom, now I'm back in my most lonely of apartments. I have work tomorrow morning and double shift thursday. (BLAHHHHH)
Everyone needs a venting blog. I hope I didn't irritate those of you reading to death.

save me by alter bridge ... does this need an explination???

You and Me.

I just got home from San Diego last night. I'll let ya know how my trip went.
Friday Morning, My grandma is late my mom wants to punch her. They were all going with me to the airport. I havn't flown since I was like 7 years old and I was a little intimidated by going through security. I got there and was just fine, I was on a standby pass to get out there. If you don't know what a standby pass is its you waiting to see if there is going to be a spot for you on the plane. It looked good about 20 minutes before they were boarding then all of a sudden they are looking for someone to transfer to a different plane. It got oversold and it didn't look like I was going to get on. I was in a panic. I didn't want to change flight but I would if I absolutly had to, not that I had a choice if this went badly. At the very last minute the lady called me forward and said "today is your lucky day miss, you better run its the very last one on the right outside." AHH I booked it in flip flops with two very full bags that didn't have wheels on them. I got there just in time and sat by a very nice man from Scotland. He was awesome and had the coolest accent EVER! He helped me with my bag and put it in for me. He was talking about Spanish Fork and I told him that's where I was from. It was cool to talk to him. I flew into Longbeach Airport. It was such a small airport which didn't intimidate me as badly. I turned on my phone and listened to my messages. Dave just had called me and said he was off work and showering and he would be there as soon as possible. I sat at the airport for a little less than an hour, until Dave's car pulled up. I got to see his base that day. I was informed that I better hope that no one important doesnt see me with a belt on. I could get banned from base if I dont have a belt on when I am in base. Apparently not having a belt is NOT proper civilian attiar. (haha ohh the marines) It was cool to see, I didn't expect it to be like an actual city but it was very cool. I met Dave's friend Paul Simpson (aka: pimpson.) We went and got a hotel which was very nice, in a city right outside of base called San Clemente. It was cute, and close by. After we got the hotel set up we went out to eat at a burger place which was pretty good. He asked what I wanted to do after I said I dont care we could go down to the beach or the hotel, he said, lets go to the beach. (I should have seen this one comin) We were down by the ocean and the tide came up a little higher than we both though and it got in his shoes, and his socks. HA I was laughing at him when he said I gotta check my shoes, he bent down, on one knee... and held my hands and said "Heather Hill, will you marry me?" AH YES PLEASE. I didn't see it comin, I mean I knew it was going to but I didn't think it would be just then. I said YES don't you worry and we sort of made out on the beach a lot lot lot. But I can do that now I have a fiance. We snuggled a lot while I was down there, Played on the beach. We ate at this really good restaurant at Dana Point. It's called Proud Mary's. If you are ever in the area go there, it's awesome. We drove out to Old Town. Walked around and bought some taffy for my aunt who is in love with it. We mostly just snuggled a lot. It was so awesome to get to be with him and the weekend went by way too fast. But I'm engaged now to this awesome man that I want to spend the rest of my life with. Friend's I'll keep you updated on when a day might be. I'll find out maybe at the end of this month or the beginning of April,(I have to share my life with the marine corps for 2 and a half more years) and I am starting plans for a wedding. If you have any idea's that you think would be helpful PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE throw them at me I'm accepting of all ideas and I don't know what the heck I'm doing anyways. So let me know.

You and Me by Lifehouse, that's it You and Me davey forever plus 3 days.

Daydreamer.

Today is a random post. Today I was daydreaming at work about how nice San Diego was going to be. I was day dreaming about hanging out with a boy all weekend long, and how nice it would be to fall asleep next to him... of course he would be on the floor and I will be in the bed. I daydreamed about having unlimited amounts of money, and what I would buy with it. I would buy a home, and stuff to put in it... and a new car, and cool things for my car like tint for the windows and make the muffler loud and cool like my car. I daydreamed about slapping someone in the face for being really stupid at work. I daydreamed about eating homemade bread with butter. I daydreamed how it would be so awesome to be a rockstar that toured the country. I would LOVE to get paid to travel. I daydreamed that I would pie my manager before I quit. I daydreamed that I would have no fear in my life, how it would be so nice to not be afraid of anything. I was mostly thinking about bugs. I think there is a bug in my room... I hope it dies before I find it so I won't be so grossed out. I daydream about clear perfect skin. How awesome would it be to just throw some blush on and eyeliner and mascara, I wish I had that luxury. I daydreamed about telling a few people off for how they treated me in the past. I daydreamed about falling asleep at a decent time, because I haven't fallen asleep earlier than 2 in the morning since Feb 16. I don't understand why myself actually.
I want everyone to know I only day dreamed of these things today. Mostlly while I was at work, but I wasn't all there at work today. I will try and go to bed earlier... with the help of sleeping aids. YAY

Daydreamer by Michael Kelsey
seriously check this guy out I LOVE his music. do it... do it.... do it!!!!

Fall For You.

I would just like to inform everyone how incredibly awesome my life is. I couldn't be happier... well yeah I could. (if I had 100 billion dollars, and my david all to myself right now instead of the marine corps owning his soul. but lets be practical here.) I have an amazing family who is so supportive of anything I have or will do. I have some real good friends I work with and live with. I have a smokin hot boyfriend who I really really really really really really really really like. My whole family likes him too. And I was so happy today, it almost brought me to tears. (happy tears) Like wow, things all fit into place. It's a really nice feeling.
Also I want everyone to know MY BIRTHDAY is this sunday. So I will be another year older... I don't really care about my birthday lately, but it's my birthday and it's a pretty big freaking deal. I am turning twenty for goodness sakes. So yeah mark your calenders, set an alarm, whatever just remember me on my day of birth.

Fall for you by secondhand serenade. Mostly just talking about that dave kid.