Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Dirty Deeds Done Dirt Cheap

As most of you know I am a waitress at a place called the "B O" And let me tell you, being a waitress aint the free and easy money flow that you may think it is. Do not get me wrong it is better money then I could ask for right now. The restaurant is very flexable with my time I put in. But there are some things I have saccraficed.
MY WEEKENDS. If you think I have any sort of a social life, you are sorely mistaken. I am best friends with my work buddies, and if I am not at work I tend to talk about work. Sometimes It is fun to just have a laugh at there, but it literally follows me home EVERY NIGHT. I only am "BUSY" for two to three hours, and hopefully the people who sat in my section threw me a bone while I served them.
MY WARDROBE. Instead of buying cute clothes that I can wear on any normal day. I buy stuff for work. Like a little boys white collerd shirt pressed everyday of course. Black Dress Pants, Black non slip shoes with black socks black belt an ugly "ENJOY" apron and tie that I had to purchase myself. Not to mention that I have to have my hair UP and away from peoples food. Apparently hair in the food isnt a good thing.
If I take a week off of work for vacations or something. There goes a whole weeks worth of tips. I have to be there to make the money. I am rendered useless without time spent in brickoven.
I MAKE NOTHING IN A PAYCHECK. The managers usually hunt me down to give me my paycheck. I have realized it aint worth my time to go and pick it up anymore. The paycheck says "VOID" instead of a money ammount. Because brickoven only pays me 2.13 and by law I need to claim my tips and out of all the money I make brickoven takes the taxes out of my paycheck. I do not recieve a paycheck ever.
My faith in humanity severly has decreased. I cannot believe a LOT of people that go to brickoven. I understand it is a family restaurant, but cmon I need to pay my bills too! I am living off of what YOU tip me. When I do not get tipped my whole day slowly goes down hill. Which is what I am getting to. If you cannot afford at LEAST a 20% tip PLEASE ORDER TAKE OUT It is not fair to me, or any other server to do that to us. Because think about it, I have to tip out a busser and an expoditer. There are other restaurants that tip out more than just that. And everything that is said in this artical that I borrowed off of Abbie's page is SO SO TRUE.


"As America - and Utah - cinches the proverbial belt tighter this year and looks for ways to cut back, I have one helpful suggestion: If you can't afford to tip well, don't go out to eat in a restaurant with a server.
I fear that many labor under the illusion that food servers lead a singular life of luxuriously high wages because of the short-sighted arithmetic employed.
"What? Twenty percent of $70 is $14? I've only been here an hour and she has four tables! Plus, she's getting paid hourly! That's more than I make at a real job!"
WRONG!
Servers in Utah make $2.13 an hour. Not a typo. Two dollars and change. That sort of covers taxes. As a server, my paychecks were somewhere between $5 and $20.
Servers come in to an empty restaurant and stay behind in an empty restaurant long past the time you are there. They earn virtually nothing for most of the night while waiting for the dinner crowd to arrive, then work like crazy for a couple of hours, when hopefully, but not usually, their section will be full. After the rush is over, they clean and wait for patrons to leave and make very little money for the rest of the evening.
Servers share their tips with the bussers and bartenders [and sometimes expediters or hostesses] . This is usually a set percentage of their gross sales. You could safely assume that if you leave a 20 percent tip, your server actually is netting about a 15 percent tip. If you leave a 15 percent tip, your server is getting around 10 percent.
And finally, let's not forget the campers - hanging around and chatting for hours. If a server has four tables in his section, and you decide to hang out all night, you personally monopolized 25 percent of his earning potential. Did you leave extra? Didn't think so.
Times are tough. People need to conserve. I agree. Go ahead and conserve at upscale fast food or at home.
And finally, if you harbor under the ridiculous notion that being cheap is a virtue, shame on you."
By: Greg Rockwell


So next time you go out to eat. Think about these things.

Dirty Deeds Done Dirt Cheap by ACDC I do not think that this title needs an explination

Friday, December 26, 2008

Come Together

Christmas has came and gone. I would say it was one of my better christmas's. I love being with my family, as much as they mostly drive me nutty to the point where I want to rip my hair out and eat it, I cant help but be happy and always lauging while they are around.
ON christmas eve I had to go to work (boo I am a slave to the grind) But it was actually so so busy! I made 100 bucks for a 5 hour shift!!! I was positivly shocked. I mean what kind of family tradition involves brickoven at Christmas time. It is beyond me. I actually saw some people that I used to go to elementary school with, which was a trip and a half. How crazy it seems when everyone grows up! I was busy beyond reason so I didnt get to talk much but all the same it was nice to see them. I came to my mommas house and opened my PJ's and they were UTES sweat pantsYES I am aware that this is not a picture of my Pj's but you get the idea. I woke up christmas morning because MY DOG was at my door and whining to go out. I guess he wanted to open his christmas presents
I gave my parental units some presents that I did not wrap, so I grabbed a box opened it and placed either half over what I was giving them. It was real nice they didn't have to unwrap anything, just lifted the box up! I went and visited the Griggs and gave them some See's Candy. Which by the way if you havnt had See's candy before YOU NEED TO TRY THEM! I will take you and buy a piece because it is soooo good! They gave me a movie, which I had never seen until today. I watched it with my mommaIt was better than I expected it to be, but I was just happy to see the Griggs. Sue is an awesome lady! The whole family is awesome, and to just see ONE of the Griggs is better than nothing. Well then I went to my grandpa John's house and we were all about to eat some good ole fashion dinner when MR GRIGGS himself called. The whole family got to talk to him... well a little, he was on speaker phone. I know his famliy (myself included) were sad to not get him on christmas, but He will be here in no time at all now! After dessert we drove home and went to bed. Which was awesome, cause I stayed up all night watching movies on MY NEW IPOD!!!! It is a 120gb and with all my music and movies it hasnt even made a dent in all the amounts of space left on there.
I hope everyone had a MERRY CHRISTMAS. Now it is time to be thinking of what to do for New Years, and some Resolutions!

Come together by the beatles. I figued everyone was coming together as families and stuff it seemd like an appropriate title.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Far away.

I have decided Japan Land is TOO FAR AWAY!!!! @#$#@!@!@
its been 7 months and I miss that kid quite a bit.
I am very very anxious to see him!!! Check the countdown! not too much longer.



I work on the 24th which in short is Christmas eve. So here is how my week is gonna look.
Sunday- Wake up at 9 to meet grandparents for a day of shopping at 6 Im going to the hill family christmas party, and around 9 I am going to American Eagle to work til about 6 in the morning. BOO
Monday- Go to sleep around 6 and sleep til 2 and go to work at 4 until Close
Tuesday- Christmas shopping (a bit late dont you think?)
Wednesday- Family time until 3 then go to work at 4 til about 8 ish then drive back to spanish fork.
Thursday- CHRISTMAS DAY!!!!
Friday-Work night time
Saturday-Work more night times.

I am ready for christmas to be done and it hasnt even started. I am so so sick of the christmas music. I am sure that tonight the song "little drummer boy" played a dozen times. (at least) I was under the impression that if I worked Thanksgiving that I would automatically get christmas removed from the schedule. Apparently NOT. I am a little bummed because I didnt know that was how It was going to go. Anyways I am glad I asked for the 23rd off because I do have to go christmas shopping some time before christmas is over. Looks like i have a busy week and a busy day tomorrow mostly.

Far away by Nickleback. Totally Daves favorite band ;) bah NOT, but he told me this song reminded him of me... which ya I see where he was comin from on that. And AGREED it is too far away!

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Belive me I'm lying

Jeni Christmas tagged me! Yahoo!

1. Wrapping paper or gift bags?

  • Gift bags because they are easier to wrap. I end up with like 8 pieces of tape stuck in my hair and wrapping paper on everything but the box I am wrapping.
2. Real tree or Artificial?

  • Neither I would rather decorate a cactus
3. When do you put up the tree?

  • I would put it up the weekend before christmas
4. When do you take the tree down?

  • The night after christmas... too much clutter in the house, so it must come down
5. Do you like eggnog?

  • No thank you :)
6. Favorite gift received as a child?

  • All the barbies I ever recieved. I would play with them now if people would still play with me :)
7. Hardest person to buy for?

  • My father, he always says he wants something lame like pants... he gets gift cards because I dont want to buy the man clothing
8. Easiest person to buy for?

  • MYSELF :)
9. Do you have a nativity scene?

  • No, I could go to a church and see it.
10. Mail or email Christmas cards?

  • I do not believe in such rituals
11. Worst Christmas gift you ever received?
  • A candle... I believe they know I have electricity, and if my apartment smells they should just tell me.

12. Favorite Christmas Movie?

  • How the grinch stole christmas with jim carrey
13. When do you start shopping?

  • When I see something that I think they would like
14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present?

  • I might have but I dont remember exactly :(
15. Favorite thing to eat or drink at Christmas?

  • Mashed potatoes and gravey and turkey, and rolls, and hot chocolate.
16. Lights on the tree?

  • Yes I believe that would be appropriate.
17. Favorite Christmas song?

  • Rudolph, or Frosty the snow man ... classico!
18. Travel at Christmas or stay home?

  • I have never traveled on christmas, I think I would prefer to stay home
19. Can you name all of Santa 's reindeer?

  • why... yes, yes I can.
20. Angel on the tree top or a star?

  • I would rather have a blinking star on top of my tree.
21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or morning?

  • ONE present christmas eve the rest in the morning.
22. Most annoying thing about this time of the year?

  • The people are all grumpy... I DISLIKE it a lot lot lot
23. Favorite ornament theme or color?

  • I like balls on christmas trees
24. Favorite for Christmas dinner?

  • The usual, mashed potatoes, turkey, etc.
25. What do you want for Christmas this year?

  • anything or nothing, I could care less

Now, I tag Becca, Jon, and MEGAN STORYBOOK


Believe me I'm lying by Forever the Sickest kids. I thought it was funny and contradicting to what this blog was about :)



Monday, December 15, 2008

All the small things.

I found out today... and this weekend, that I do have some really good friends that I didn't think I had. I thought all this time, I was the only one who had any compassion, and felt bad for people, and that I was the listener friend who wasn't allowed to have a bad day... to talk about anyways. With my current money situation, I am not financial stable as of right meow. Mostly with my stupid car but my friends I suppose thought it would be funny (and it was just a joke people) to start a Heather Fund (psh like I am a charaty case) But the thing is they really did... it was only a couple bucks... which added up to 50 but I was oh so grateful. I just wish I had a better way to say thank you to (brett, chris, steph, and nat) You all really shouldn't have but at the same time you have no idea how much this means to me. I am forever grateful, and I will always be there if you ever need anything! Love you guys! (as I wipe away a tear of happiness bahaha I have a LEAK dont judge me.)
Abbie and myself threw an awesome gingerbread house making party which was... awesome. I for some odd reason did not take pictures... how utterly UN CONVIENIENT! But of the gingerbread houses left here are some pictures to OOGLE at! I also picked up my guitar from my home and let Cara's husband play. He is really really good! I kind of suck and can only play like the intro to songs, or Johnny Cash songs. But I love to play it so I been pluckin away for the past couple hours. All in all I belive it was a successful brickoven party. Cause Abbie and I are the best party planners in the world... of brickoven.
MY GRAHAM CRACKER HUT
(on the beach)I'm not sure who did this lovely work of art... but good job!Um this is Stephanie's hey... she tried. And she is PRETTY!
She is here... dont judge her. haha OH and I love this girl because we both LOVE the UTES, but thats all today.


All the small things by Blink 182. I dont like them very much but this song makes me think of all the small things that do matter.


Sunday, December 14, 2008

Stay where I can see you

So, I dont think people realize how much it sucks to have a boyfriend who is not in the same zipcode let alone the same country, SOOooOOOooOOooOooOoo. Let me explain. When you hang out the burrito to taco ratio is usually one off... considering I am not interested, so they dont think to invite anyone to come hang out with me as well. So I would have to find some friend to take with me or something, but I DONT, because I am so dumb to think, this time it'll be different. See I think that its just going to be a big group together having some fun, but it isnt. Couples break off and I am left. So I end up being the third wheel, or the fifth wheel, or the seventh, wheel...so on and so forth. It makes me very lonely and very ... well just lonely. Even though there are people around, they are only talking in couples, not to everyone. I feel like this sucks. I mean, why can't people go out in groups and not couple up. especially if the burrito- taco ratio is not equal? I could care less, but it is nice to just have someone to talk to so you dont feel soo left out. Anyways about my day (oh you will just LOVE this) I stayed at home the other night to go early to get some spa treatment... which was to put it lightly AWESOME. I felt so relaxed and happy. Very comfortable. I had to drive fast... but carfully to home to get to work ontime. I worked for a few hours and made... like 10 bucks an hour. Then I hung out with some friends... and when I went back to my car... it was gone. :( Guess what that means!! yay for tow trucks!! (grrr) Meaning I am out a lot of money to pay my car's bail. On my own stupid fault. I was supposed to get grahm crackers for tomorrow but NOW I am left without a car. My friends took me home (thank you!) and NOW ... here I am stranded. I have always had my car it is like... my escape. When I get upset or I need space I drive. For hours and hours. I once drove to st george... just to turn right back around. I love my lil car! If you dont know the story behind my car check out my other blog right hurrrr. It's like my good day just went down the disposal because I parked too long ... (actually only a half hour over) So yeah if you are wondering how I am getting my car back. My bestfriend Brett Slade. (He is seriously the most coolest down to earth dude I ever met and I am so glad he is in my life because he has helped me out by keepin my head strait and driving me to this stupid place to pick up my car tomorrow) Anyways he is gonna get me tomorrow to get it for me... I owe him some home made cookies or something now.
BY THE WAY. I miss Dave +
Well that is my day, pretty crappy but I will get over it... and to pay my fine, i will be picking up more shifts at the B. O. Soo if you go to brickoven, I bet you 5 bucks you will seee me there... seriously bet me... I need the 5 bucks!!

stay where I can see you by the starting line. I really like this band, but mostly just the song. It kind of represents how I feel about... a certain... boy... who is not... here... right now... but he will be check the countdown PUNK!!!

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Be my escape

I am so in a good mood today. Which is odd because I worked a double shift at the B. O. BUT i made 140 bucks for all day... and i worked about 9 hours... so that is about 15 bucks an hour. Most the time if you are on a double you get put in early out sections and you get sent home early and you are there for like 4 hours and make like 30 bucks. So this is a really good day today. Now the only way it would get better is if Lance Corporal Griggs would get online so I could tell him I missed him today. I bet he knows, but it is nice to be reminded I hear. So I am going to sleepover at my moms house friday, which will be nice to sleep in a cozy bed instead of this hard as rock one. Then I am getting a facial that my momma is paying for. YAY. I have never had one so I hope it is nice and relaxing. I need a relaxing day so super excited.
I decided I need a hobby and since I loved my dance classes so much in school, I am going to find a dance team to join, I think that will help me keep motivated to work out and also I just love doing that stuff. I also need to go to UVU again here soon so I can figure out my financial situation so I can get back to school. I think that would be best. =)
I am sending some christmas presents to Japanland here shortly. Like this coming week. I hope he likes them... if not I bet he lies so that I feel good about it. Bahhahaha. JK.
Well I am sick and need sleep meow.

Be my escape. I just love relient K and that is what I have been listening to the past like 3 days? Anyways I just like this song. If you dont like relient K, well.. dont tell me

Monday, December 8, 2008

Back to good

I had a loverly talk with Stanager the manager. I realized that work stays at work, and home I can just be at home. I need to not let things get to me. I know what happened, and everyone can just get over it. I am who I am and there aint nothing that I can do about that. Hate me if you want to and Love me if you can. I am super excited for January 27th to see mr griggs again. I have nothing to do tomorrow, but I bet I will start making a list of things to do starting with taking back my extremely LARGE t shirt I bought for work, I bought boys shirts last time, and they are XL and they dont fit quite well, but I realized that they are XL in KIDS. I got an XL in mens and ohhhh boy! NO offence but it is HUGE so im going to exchange it for an XS, and hopefully it will fit better. I am going to try and be a better employee and not get wrapped up in everyones drama anymore, I can be there as a friend for anyone, but I want no part in it. OH and NO MORE GOSSIP FOR ME. I will never say one more bad thing about people about work, I will not seek to find out what is going on with who, and I just dont want to know anymore. I am done stressing about all this dramarauma. I will go back to being oblivious and not wanting it any other way! OORAH!
Tomorrow should be a good en.

back to good by matchbox 20. Considering I am trying to restore my happiness factor back at work, I need to focus on getting back to good. hense the title

Sunday, December 7, 2008

In my bloodstained sundays best

Today I went to the brickoven Christmas partayyy!
Me, Abbie, and Chris (we're hott)

Congrats to Abbie for being employee of the year! (wootwoot) The Brickoven kindly rented out mirical bowl for us to bowl and eat food at. It was fun and i hate bowling but it was fun because its not like anyone really cared about who won. Which was awesome. I didnt win anything, but I wasnt concerned with that. I got to just relax and have some fun with people I actually like to be around. I went to AE after to say hi and show them my hairs! They loved it. I went home and played with my puppies and hung out with the parents. I would say today was a purty good day!

A walk through Hell by Say Anything. OK if you dont mind a bit of swearing Say Anything is one of my favorite bands EVER. This song is like totally awesome! You should check it out got it!?

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Let It Die

Do you ever think of me? You're so considerate...

Do you ever wonder is someone so immature that they cant even un focus their own little bubble to be considerate of others? I know I am not all girly, I dont like going clubbing, dancing whatever! But just to be asked would be nice. I would ask you to be nice. HELL I asked people I don't even like to the movies, regardless to the fact that they declined I still was nice enough to ASK. WTF is wrong with everyone lately. The drama is insane! The wispers are driving me crazy. I am so bugged with all these girls and boys its REDICULOUS!
Work sucked, and everyone knew it. I miss dave, I cant think strait. I wish he would just come home now! (yes please) I am so lonely, I mean hell it isnt like I NEED a best friend, but it would be convienient. Just to be able to talk to someone about anything and KNOW it wasnt going anywheLF,re. I have thought I have had best friends in the past, and they just turn out to be friends. I always read those "friend and a true friend" things. Like a friend would bail you out of jail, a true friend would be sitting next to you saying WE SHOWED HIM. (or something of that nature) I never realized how true it is. Except I dont have a best friend, so I can only compair the ones that are just friends. I wish I had a best friend, I think I should start taking applications, OH wait. I wouldn't get any.
Disregard everything I am saying. I am just having a pity-party. The only person invited is MYSELF so please dont take anything I say to heart, just had a bad day.

Let it die by the foo fighers. Foo Fighters, are EPIC. They have a killer drummer and I love all of their albums and songs and EVERYTHING. If you dont like foo fighers well F. U. haha jk but seriously

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

First one on the blog

BETHANIE tagged me! bah great now i have to do this. Ok so I like doing these things... dont judge me.

8 TV Shows I Like....
1 - My name is earl. I absolutly love this show, its after the office and they usually have good meanings behind all the shows.
2- Family guy. HA HA what won't peter do!?
3- The simpsons Cmon Simpsons are classic! whoever doesnt like them must have something wrong with their lives.
4- South Park I know I just LOVE this show though
5- The office Pam and Jim FOREVER!!!
6- Rock of love I know its over and Brett Michaels will never be with some hot rocker chick but who doesnt love laughing at the girls on that show!
7- Best week ever I find watching this show gives me more than the news ever would, except the weather.
8- unwrapped It is on the food network all the time and they show how stuff is made and where and it is AWESOME!

8 Things I Did Yesterday...
1 - Went to work
2- Ate a sammich at brick oven with rich and his friend.
3- Tried to sleep all day
4- Talked to my mommy!
5- Picked up some item off my floor in my room. go me!
6- Started re reading harry potter #6
7- Watched Transformers
8- Wrote a blog

8 Things I'm Looking Forward To...
1- My mom and I are getting facials for christmas
2- For this month to be OVER (i am not a fan of crowds or people around christmas)
3- Dave to come HOME!
4- Showing my mom my hair.... (YIKES)
5- Hanging out with Simon on Friday
6- Present shopping for everyone else
7- Going snowboarding with Becca (hell ya!)
8- Gingerbread House Partayyy!!!! haayyyyy

8 Of My Favorite Restaurants...
1- La Casita. Mexican food is bomb
2- Ruby River, I love sex steak
3- The Pizza Factory. I just love the bread twists!
4- Cafe Rio Its just epic thats all
5- Rosa Marias Its in california and they have amazing burritos that are the size of my arm!
6- Wingers I just love the sticky fingers...mmmmmmm
7- Olive Garden. They have some yummy breadsticks tooo.
8- My Grandmas house. Christmas is coming up soon!

8 Things I Wish For...
1- Dave to get through the marines safe. I try not to worry about it but... kind of scary :(
2- Things to not go wrong in my life
3- Things to be easy
4- My family to be safe.
5- A dog, or a pet I just want something to cuddle!
6- For the month and a half to go FASTER
7- To have better friends
8- To make more at work

8 People I Tag...
JON
MEGAN storybook
Becca
Cara
Janna
BRE
Janelle
Squidvicious
Tanner


OK all done now. I did something some might say is CRAZY, but I am no longer blonde. As you can tell I have gone a shade of brown. I LOVE IT. If you have anything bad to say about it... dont say anything at all. Do not rain on my parade... well my hair. Thats all the news! I cant wait for our gingerbread house party!!! OORAH

First one on the blog by farewell. I LOVE FAREWELL mostly because there is a song with my name in it (hey heather by farewell if you are interested) They are really cool. I also like this song because it says blog. WHICH IS NEAT


Monday, December 1, 2008

You're gonna go far kid

This is a poem being sent from a Marine to his Dad.
For those who take the time to read it, you'll see a letter from
him to his Dad at the bottom. It makes you truly thankful
for not only the Marines, but ALL of our troops.

THE MARINE

We all came together,
Both young and old
To fight for our freedom,
To stand and be bold.

In the midst of all evil,
We stand our ground,
And we protect our country
From all terror around.

Peace and not war,
Is what some people say.
But I'll give my life,
So you can live the American way.

I give you the right
To talk of your peace.
To stand in your groups,
and protest in our streets.

But still I fight on,
I don't bitch, I don't whine.
I'm just one of the people
Who is doing your time.

I'm harder than nails,
Stronger than any machine.
I'm the immortal soldier,
I'm a U.S. MARINE!

So stand in my shoes,
And leave from your home.
Fight for the people who hate you,
With the protests they've shown.

Fight for the stranger,
Fight for the young.
So they all may have,
The greatest freedom you've won.

Fight for the sick,
Fight for the poor.
Fight for the cripple,
Who lives next door.

But when your time comes,
Do what I've done.
For if you stand up for freedom,
You'll stand when the fight's done.

By: Corporal Aaron M. Gilbert, US Marine Corps
USS SAIPAN, PERSIAN GULF

March 23, 2003

Hey Dad,

Do me a favor and label this "The Marine" and send it to
everybody on your email list. Even leave this letter in it. I
want this rolling! all over the US; I want every home reading
it. Every eye seeing it. And every heart to feel it. So can you
please send this for me? I would but my email? time isn't that
long and I don't have much time anyway. You know what Dad?
I wondered what it would be like to truly understand what JFK
said in His inaugural speech.

"When the time comes to lay down my life for my country,
I do not cower from this responsibility. I welcome it."

Well, now I know. And I do. Dad, I welcome the opportunity
to do what I do. Even though I have left behind a beautiful
wife, and I will miss the birth of our first born child, I would
do it 70 times over to fight for the place that God has made
for my home.? I love you all and I miss you very much. I wish
I could be there! when Sandi has our baby, but tell her that I
love her, and Lord willing, I will be coming home soon. Give
Mom a great big hug from me and give one to yourself too.
Aaron




I found that on someone's myspace today, I thought it was a killer poem. Considering Boy is in the marines, I found the poem fitting to put on my page.
I need a back massage like no other. I think somone should want to do that for me... anyone? anyone at all? oh... shoot. I really do need one though I am so tired of work, and being stressed, just everything. I am getting my hair done tomorrow which is exciting, as you might see I have a poll where you guys could give me your imput on what I should do with my hair. Except the fact I am doing it tomorrow so if you dont vote today, well I'm gonna do what I want anyways. But I wanted more peoples opinion. I am slighly nervous about it. I hope it isnt un attractive. I bet it wont be.
I cannot wait to move home. UGH. I am sorry but I cannot take it anymore the bed sucks, the building is stupid, my room is small, the apartment is always messy, no one seems to give a damn, shit gets stolen, food goes missing. I am just done! I cannot wait for may so I can move home. I will then save a bunch of money go to school and buy a car. That sounds like a good idea. Having a curfew is not such a bad thing. It kept me out of stuff I probably shouldnt be doing anyways, like staying up late! HA HA sounds obvous right?
HEY if you dont already know I have a second blog. Check it out here!
HAHA I got a lot of people laughing today. (which is probably my favorite thing in the world to do, but its from this comedian called Mitch Hedberg. This is my favorite one... check it out. He is hilarous! If you like him check out his other stuff.
ahh time for bed

your gonna go far kid by the offspring
I was listening to the radio and I liked this one but I wasnt listening to who sings it so I tried to find it on google and I could not. I kept typing in the lyrics I thought they were saying, but I found it eventually!

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Pace Yourself

Today was pretty good, eh didn't really do much to say anything about. If you read my other blog you kind of know what has been on my mind lately. I have been thinking of things I need to change in myself. And I planning a new years resolution. (I know what you are thinking, No one ever sticks to those) I am hoping that I can this time. NOT hoping I AM GOING TO. I will do this. I also have been thinking that I loved when I had my dance class, I think I am going to find a dance company or something I can go to once a week, make me excited for a tuesday or wednesday or something like that. YEP I will be looking into that this coming up month. I have also been thinking, I cannot belive that I havnt seen Griggs since July, and I cant belive that this year is almost over. I cant wait to see him either. YAY. I kind of miss that kid. a lot. I sometimes read through old things we talked about to just remember him. Its kind of silly but when you dont talk for days upon days, its nice to look back and think about when we could just talk. I am still waiting and plan on keeping it that way. I need to for me. I know that it sucks going this whole long time without him, gosh cant i get a boyfriend who is in the same zip code or even the same continent. I am so proud of what he does though, so I forgive him for leaving me for a hell of a long time! haha Like it would matter if I didnt. Well I miss him. Work is going to be not so fun working a triple shift (B O double then to AE) then thanksgiving then AE at 6 am to 11 then to brick oven for another double. YUCK. haha well good money I hope :D

Pace Yourself by the higher, I am trying to focus on so many things at once that I think I need to pace myself in doing so because change doesnt happen over night. I'll keep you posted.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Down

Today sucked. I have no further explinations except that I want today to be over. RIGHT MEOW.

Down by Blink 182
they're an alright band I guess, but this is the only song I like from them.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

The skin I'm In


Today I have decided on my tattoo. YES I want this ink on my body the rest of my life. It will be on my inner right ankle/foot. I will have a saying going accross the side of my foot saying "ádh mór ort" The meaning of this saying is Good Luck in Irish. I will be putting a small shamrock at the inner ankle which I want to look something like this picture. Somthing similar. It is really really cool looking dont you agree? If you dont... well I dont really care. I like it. It is perfect for me, it will remind me that my life is going to hand me cards, and it is going to be luck on my side I can only hope for good luck. I think I am a pretty lucky girl right about now though :) The expected date for this tattoo will be some time in december, hopfully the week or so before christmas but I am going to have to do it on a friday or saturday, so I have sunday to let the scabbing. It is going to HURT if I have to work on my feet with this right after it gets done... OUCH. My room mate Becca and I will decide because we are getting tattoos together. I am quite excited. YAY.

The skin I'm in by Gavin Rossdale. Gavin has an incredible voice. I could listen to his cd's all night long and fall asleep to his sweet raspy voice!

Monday, November 17, 2008

Rumors

This is me and Amanda-lyn my married best friend, and this was before going to kylis wedding.

I am - Happy from a good day of working =)

I want - Febuary to come faster! I miss him

I hear - My room mates talking ... that is all

I never - believe things people tell me, I take everyones excuses as a lie to get out of doing anything

I wonder - If I play the guitar more that lyrics will just come to me?

I always - work, sleep, and eat.

I usually - have a very short temper, say something wrong and watch your head get bitten off :)

I search - for meaning in life, religion, and basically everything I do, I search for the reason why.

I am not - as girly as you might think, I am a metalhead, I dont cry, and I am basically one of the boys because I cant stand the estrogin for more then an hour a day!

I dance - as much as I can, I LOVE doing hip hop dances, and lyrical.

I sing - alone in my car, people probably stare at me and think I am crazy!

I wish - I would live happily ever after, but that doesnt exist... so I wish for a old 65 fast back mustang for christmas cherry red!

I dislike - girls who act all like "OMG i broke a NAIL" And people who dont clean up after themselves

I rarely - think about my own needs

I cry -ed when my dog had to be put down, I had that pup for 10 years, which is a long time in dog years.

I am not always - nice, when people first meet me they think (B*TCH) but I just says it how I sees it and no one quite gets that in utah valley

I lose - my temper quickly... its a bad habit

I fear - that I will be the crazy cat lady one day! :( Please dont let that happen to me friends.

I'm confused - when it comes to women, if they said what was on their mind, there would be no confusion.

I need - MOOORE MONEY!!! I just like the smell of it

I should - Clean my room, and write david a letter....I MISS HIM

I dream - of living in a world of acceptance, that wont happen ever!

I have - my whole life ahead of me, what to do what to do?

I love -my family! they are so much fun and I miss haning out with them when I have to work :( boo

**I tag anybody who wants to do this. It was pretty fun.**

HA now that that is done, I had an excellent day today at work and made a butt-load of moneys!!! YAY. I realized I have some great friends today, and some great people I work with. I enjoy my job, but not enough to keep being happy about it all the time. My days are pickin up again. I think I have been crummy like all week because I hate the weather, SERIOUSLY folks when It is gloomy out side that is when I get depressed, good thing there is tanning so I can get my happy rays! It is basically like my drug and I can get my fix off of tanning and I will be good for a week. ANYWAYS. No contact from marine for a week (fetch this sucks) I do miss him a lot and I hope he knows that. He should have my letters I sent to him by now. I wonder if he is doing ok? I am wondering where he is though, sad day for that. I have decided I dislike all people who judge anyone before knowing people. I have to go to work tomorrow, so I am hittin the hay! Which is for horses. haha NIGHT

rumors by waking ashland. I like this band and I figured it tied into the mini schpill on my life that I wrote, check out waking ashland!!

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

I get it.

sorry I forgot you were perfect. My bad My bad.

why do people make fun of other people, or put them down? why do they think that will help. I apologies I have sinned. I am going to be better and NOT talk about people anymore. I am DONE. I have no reason to even talk about anyone behind their back. YA some people may be damn annoying and all you want to do is punch them in the FACE, but since you cant or you shouldnt, you talk about them, "like oh my gosh he is such a creeper" or "i cannot believe she would do that." I am done being that girl that you know is gonna drop gossip at a drop of a hatch. YA I know I have already YA YA YA, but those who have not sinned cast the first stone.
I have no reason why I have been so moody, grumpy, bitchy, whatever word you would like to use....but it is stopping RIGHT NOW.
I need to focus on the positive of everything, AND everyone.

Today was a good day, I went to Dave's parents house and hung out for like an hour or so. His family is so cool. They are so chill and just a very friendly bunch to be around. I like them.I showed them the present Davie sent me from JAPLAND. I could marry into that...haha um.. yeah I dont see that happening right now, but WHO KNOWS. Like in my last post WHO KNOWS!

I get it by chevelle, I am pretty sure this song is kind of sarcastic when you listen to it. Basically it is a whatever song and ya ya I get it your perfect what was I thinking kind of song.

Monday, November 10, 2008

It isnt me

If you have noticed this glazed over look in my eyes lately. It is because I have been thinking. (thinking is not one of my strong points.) I just dont know how my life is going to end up. I hate thinking that one day Im going to marry the man of my dreams and live happily ever after, but I dont think life works out that way. Look at my parents, accidental child divorced a year later but still happyily together (life partners they call it) But there are others that are married for 10 years or so and they are divorced. How does this happen? I need to know that a couple can be together forever. Yes there are going to be differences, but how do you surpass that? How do you just get over differences. I, I wish I understood. I know I have a marine, and I L word him, I wouldnt be waiting if I didnt. But what if we grow apart... I cant stop thinking about all these silly little things. I need something to focus on so I can just stop worring. I cannot wait to start school again. I bet you it will be great to be back in school. I just wish I could have afforded it while I was moved out. I am just having one of those moments on ... where is my life going and what if it doesnt go how I wish it to go? Seriously who knows what is GOING to happen, but I want there to be some security in my choices for the rest of my life. I have no control right now and it is kinda freaking me out. I need some security and happiness. I want my mom.

It isnt me by The Color Fred
The color fred started with one of the guitarists from taking back sunday. They're a pretty cool band and you should check them out. It isnt me to be like all wierd and wondering about the future, I usually live day to day, but I have this fairy tale thing that I think about for the future then I realize I have no control over what will happen. It isnt me.

Friday, November 7, 2008

The Patient

So I was having a wonderful day today and I was pretty pumped for work (friday is big money BIIIIIG money!) I was hopin for one awesome section (like I normally do) and I get a butt hole of a section. Which bummed me out a little bit, but my boss MANAGER 1 commented on my shirt because I bleached it out and did a crease of success. (which is a good thing for him to notice, because I want My STARS) So he said "keep it up and next time you will get your stars." I asked when that would be he said "well it could have been today but some people think your uniform isnt up to par, so keep it up. In other words MANAGER 1 brought my name up and a certain someone (manager 2) rejected it. So no stars for me. Manager 2 was just NIT PICKING. He says my pants are not black enough and he is the ONLY one saying it. Everyone else doesn't have a problem with me. And he just keeps making up these stupid lame excuses like I am not wearing blush, or enough make up, my pants are not black enough (which they are) And he just keeps fighting it. So what HE wants me to do is pay another 40 bucks to get new pants and keep up this stupid shirt and crease of success for like a month and maybe he'll throw me a bone. BUT I highly doubt that. For some reason MANAGER 2 doesnt want me to have my stars and I am so over it that I just could care less. If there is no pleasing him then why fight with him about it anymore. If he doesnt want to play fair then I will just continue doing what I am doing (aka a great job) and he can just be a bitch about it. I am done with my uniform it is up to par with all the other managers, so OH WELL.
In other news I got my late stay shift on thursday again. Thursdays are pretty busy (for the most part) So I am hopin to make some good money.
I wish I could move home, but it would cost a lot to try and put my contract up again. I am just going to have to wait it out, but I miss my mom and dad. I think that I might go hang out with them tomorrow night if they aren't doing anything special. Maybe bribe them and tell them I am going to pick up their cafe rio or something silly. Parents like when you do stuff like that. I do miss my mom a lot. Especialy as of late. I count on her to remind me to tie my shoes, I am surprised I havnt lost my head, except it is attached. I should probably try and organize my life, but it gets to hard to keep it organized. I like my life of chaos. (haha ok not soo much) I should probably work on that more.
I have a new work out buddy. JON! He really likes weight training and jazz like that and I need someone to keep me motivated. And he is a really good kid so I am hoping that he will help me. ALSO since we are going to be working out in the mornings at like 730 and schtuff like that, it should help motivate me to go to bed earlier, and maybe even eat breakfast. ( I was told that I have to) I'll keep ya updated on that. I start MONDAY!

the patient by tool
Tool is by far the most poetic bands out there. They literally kick the shit out of every band known to mankind. You should listen to it. I have to be patient with my work, and my life, and the working out thing so I thought it would fit.

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Gotta be somebody

Today was a wonderful day. Worked out, tanning, then home to do laundry and hang out with my dog while my parents go to the UTES game. (BTW utes won so still only one undefeated team in utah.) As soon as they scored the winning touchdown I get a phone call from that David kid in Korea. YA he is going to be able to contact me more there, So I wont be so completely obsessed with him on my blog when I dont get to talk. This will help.
WELL my workout plan is going well so far since i started on tuesday. I should be on track for tomorrow and on saturday I will go right after work, and NO pasta from the B.O Just some salad. (rabbit food) I am going to try and wake up early to go running but I dunno if I am gonna make it EARLY early, just like 12 or 1 in the afternoon or something. PURTY exciting day.
So This picture is to show that the UTES is Where it is at B*tches!
10 and 0 for their season so far. I have faith that they can keep this up! LIKE HELL YES they can. =)
Just pray for them.










Gotta be somebody by nickelback is from their newest album. Listen to it... love it. I know you will

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

sitting, waiting, wishing

It was so lovely not having to work Tuesday, but I think I need work. It keeps my mind busy and sane. HA. I did get some stuff done though, including go to cafe rio, which is always amazing, but yesterday the guy doing the beginning part of my order was "ein Dumkopf." When I said Pork Burrito he said "oh hungry are we?" I just said ... "yeah" He asked black or pinto beans I said both. He asked again. I said both. Then Proceeded to put only one of them in, black if you must know. Then he said Mild Medium or Hot. I said HOT. He put Mild in, and looked at me. I said HOT! and THEN he put in HOT sauce. Like I didnt even notice him doing it. Then he says Enchlada style? I said YES he said NO SAUCE? I said NO I WANT..... he cut me off, put cheese on it and put it in the oven thingy. I was in shock. Was he deaf? Im not 100 percent sure. He got my friends order right, so maybe he just hated me. (who knows) Didnt taste bad or anything, I just like it MY WAY.
Im very used to having things MY way, because being an only child gives a lot of room for just my way. Which is how I like it. I feel bad for my future husband. He is gonna have to put up with me. But I think he'll be ok. (lets pray for that.)
I have been thinking of going to another church again sunday. I went to a Presbyterian church a couple sundays ago, and I LOVED it. Maybe it was the bag pipes playing, Or it was just the talk the pastor gave. I felt like I had an actual spiritual moment. Which is rare and far between when I actually have those.
I am so excited to hear from Dave, Soon hopefully. I have not recieved a call yet, but I should be I hope. Im prayin for that too. But Not too much longer until I can talk to him on the computer again, and Febuary is not too far away either! eeek :)
I miss my momma and my dad. I thought I would just LOVE living on my own, and dont get me wrong I love the freedome and the being responsible for myself, but I love having them as my company. They always make me laugh and keep me entertained for the most part. Im gonna go visit my mommy tomorrow morning before she takes off for the UTES game!!!
I am hopin and wishin that the UTES win this game (oh please oh please) I cannot take the ridicule from work if they loose. When BYU already lost to the team they are going to be playing(hehe) I still think it is so funny their quest is over.
Back to my parents. They look pretty young ay? They're hot. I have some good genes for me when I get old. Bwahahaha. Hmm notice any resemblence, because I dont see how I am related. Look at that blondie with the burnettes, I am definetally fed ex.
I am still waiting. Patiently for my life to start, I think febuary will give me an idea on where to begin! ;)

sitting waiting wishing by jack johnson is an AMAZING song. This particular song relates to the fact that I am waiting for my life to finally start and a phone call.


Monday, November 3, 2008

Your call

Waiting for your call I'm sick, call I'm angry, call I'm desperate for your voice.
I had work today (oh joy) Love the monday night free rootbeer let me tell you. (BLEH) that was me vomiting. HAHA It sucked it was super busy and I barley made 10 bucks an hour... more like 8 or 9 bucks an hour. It is still really good, but lately on mondays I have been making more then 100 bucks a night which is AWESOME! No big deal though I will have better days obviously, and sometimes worse days. People are just annoying. I am getting so burnt out from work. OH so where I was going with this blog is I get to work at 4 and get a phone call at 5 but it was just my momma, so I ignored it because I was working. The next vibration was from a text that says "answer your phone it's dave" so I freaked, I had several theorys. A: Something bad happened and his mom called my mom and she wanted to tell me right then. B: Dave some reason had my dads phone (not likely) or something along those lines like they could transfer a call (even though I dont think that is possible) Anyways I went downstairs to the "bathroom" to call my mom back , and she said Dave called her house, looking for me, and then asked for my number. SO time for the waiting game. I am hoping for some kind of contact tonight, well desperatly PRAYING for some kind of contact. Would that not just be the most amazing thing to happen today. I miss that bugger. I would love to just talk to him for at least a minute. I am so happy to know he is thinking of me though. Even if he DID forget my phone number, but he has more important things going on obviously.
I miss him so much it hurts. I just want to see him. Talk, just about anything. I can't take this distance anymore. I wish he could just hear my thoughts and call me!
"I just want my phone call" the joker from the Dark Knight
I am excited for tomorrow NO SERVITUTE! YAY i hate my job! =D
Ha ha no I don't hate it but when you work EVERY stinkin day, you become very very very burnt out of stupid people that come in. I could literally write a book on things that people do that irritate me, funny things they say, stupid things they say, funny things they do, stupid things they do, how I dislike when they shake their glass at me to show its empty, how they ask for straws, when they tell you how to do your job, when they say they know how things on the menu are supposed to work and I obviously havnt worked at the B.O. Long enough. HAHA like I said I could go on and on and ON. I wont bore you to death with my blog though.
I was thinking today. Febuary isnt too far away (crap) I want to look dead sexy when that particular month rolls around (no reason :) :) :) I am wanting to loose 10 lbs. So tomorrow is going to be the start of my work out plan and sligtly altered diet. Trust me I am going to be eating whatever I want but in much smaller portions, and I will no longer drink caffine, or other gross sugary drinks. Im sticking to this, this time. I need to.
Semper
Your call by Secondhand Serenade. I love love LOVE secondhand serenade, one of my favorite bands. This particual song is me um... waiting for... his ... call.... SOON!!!!
Im praying that I will get one, Im desperate for his voice!

Sunday, November 2, 2008

You might have noticed

Dear friends, I have made a new blog. I couldn't figure out how to fix my old blog to make it look cute (as it finally is.) So Welcome to my new blog! I am so excited about the first post today. I have some exciting news about my day today. I picked up a couple letters from Dave's friends/my friends, that I am sending to him. I am so excited to send it to him, because I think that will make his day. (as soon as he gets it in like 2 weeks!) I went to visit my fam today. First my grandparents, because my grandpa had surgery on his knee caps for artheritis. He wasn't doin so well :( Makes me sad to see him like that.


I went and picked up a letter from Miker and from Quotah. Then I hung out with my mommy and daddy. I miss hanging out with them just on sundays. I regret ever wanted to leave and not hang out with them when I lived there. I miss just bein around them.
So anyways NEW BLOG. I am really sad about my old one but I couldn't figure out a way to fix it to normal even I messed with the settings and I couldn't do anything but make the background white. So there you go!

Latest news from Dave: He is heading for Korea unless he is already there. He will be there for like 27 days or so, and then he will go back to Japan until January then he supposibly will be back in Camp Pendelton and then in Febuary he will be HOME for 3 weeks. =D
I had a good meeting with my roommates today. I am hoping this will help a lot. Because I am not liking being moved out. I am just lonely, miserable, and grossed out by being in my apartment. I do not even approve of people being in our apartment because it is so nasty. I am embarressed! So I am hoping this will be better.
Halloween came and went so fast it was crazy that Halloween is already over! I have some great pictures of me and a couple of my room mates and some people from work.
I will be continueing how I had my older blog and stick with a song that relates to my feelings for the day. Today the song you might have noticed is by the academy is.. They're an awesome band I belive you should check them out if you havent. The song title should be self explanitory the fact that I erased my old blog and made a new one is the you might have noticed. Hope you continue to read!